I fell asleep to Kacey Musgraves….

and woke up in a funk. I couldn’t shake all day this fog of discouragement. It took me until this very moment to realize what I was sitting under, and why.

I feel asleep in comparison. I feel asleep wondering why the younger me wasn’t trying to make it in the music world. I feel asleep with my inner voice critiquing every wrong note I sing, in comparison with every right note someone else sings. I woke up with more questions than I had answers and too many unknowns to place my soul at ease.

I feel asleep with comparison and woke up with no joy. There is a quote that says “comparison is the thief of joy,” and this was the day I was living. And then I went and read something I wrote over a year ago….

I am someone’s goal! (A group of younger women passed Alina and I as we hiked out to a lookout on the beach. Alina was a sleep in my arms and one of the girls commented to me #lifegoals/#momgoals and they all agreed!) It was a boastful realization, simply a fact. We all have someone 5 steps ahead of us and 5 steps behind at any given moment. Each one of us can be and are someone else’s goal. We can’t be everything to everyone. The youngest, the smartest, the most successful, the prettiest, the wisest, the holiest. It would benefit us greatly if we, with confidence, realize we are someone else’s goal, and to love the exact season we are in! 

Those who look at me for #momgoals, I want them to see a strong, confident, joy filled mother of 5! Not wasting one moment second guessing who I was created to be! 

It didn’t take long to snap me back into reality and to see the lie I had picked up the night before, daydreaming that somehow life would be different if I were someone else... tonight I’ll fall asleep, a picture of me in my head finding thankfulness for everything in my life, for everyone in my life and exactly who I am!