From this vantage point:
Here I sit, this vantage point of days passed by. Moments, turned to years and all but a glimpse of a memory to recall. I have wondered what it may be like to have this birthday. Who ever decided it’d be a “big one’! Oh my goodness, such pressure!
So, here I sit, at the beach, taking every moment in. Tears in my eyes, the sound of the waves crashing upon each other. A symphony of laughter surrounds me, from my 5 beautiful children. How is this MY life?
The beach has always been a magical place of bliss and pain. For whatever reason the rhythm of the waves brings about the depths of my heart. In some seasons I am overflowing with deep joy and hope. Cherishing each one of my children’s first walks on the beach, memories with my parents and grandparents. It’s always been a place of rest for my husband and I. Where as other seasons I can’t help but feel the rhythm of confusion and heartbreak. Saying goodbye to my unborn baby, realizing how confused I was about God’s actual pleasure with me as a daughter of His.
I am a fountain of gratitude for the life that i’ve lived and the dreams that lie ahead. I could unwind on all that was and fear all that could be but instead the simplest of words rings more true today than ever, trust!
I have no clue what the next season of life will bring but I know that I can trust it will be for my good.
